I am trying to figure out how I am going to be super mom.I guess knowing Greg is going to be gone for weeks on end is starting to settle in. I am trying to be happy knowing we have a job but there is so much more to it all.I am in charge of everything I am ready for it but then again I am not.I am having other things going on and know it is waying on my mind. LIFE sometimes that word is so much more then just a word.I guess if I wanted to be a single mom I would have signed up that way.I will get through it it will just take time.On a happier note I am finally feeling better.....well sorta not good enough to work out but enough I can fold our mountain of laundry GO me.

Vday dance

Greg and I went to the Stake dance tonight.It was so fun and we had a wonderful time! The funny thing is that Greg who isn't a member of my church brought up the idea to go...crazy huh.He said he might even go to church with us tomorrow.....heres hoping!

Wahooo

I worked out 3 times this week.Played volleyball 2 days and then walked.It is a start but hey I am up.I realize I go through seasonal depression it sucks but as soon as Feb comes around I start feeling better.I am happy with most things right now.

Work out

Well I did it I got up and went for a walk today! Thats all....

Crazy life

Life has been so crazy I have neglected this blog big time. Greg has been looking so hard for a job and we finally decided to have him go get his Truck driving license.It will be hard to have him gone.The kids are great and doing very well. Me I am working on stuff one of these days I am going to get my big booty in action and loose this weight.I am struggling with this a lot and wish it would just go away.I know how it got here but wish it wasn't there.

Crying for me

So there is a toby Keith song that is on the radio it is truly one of my favorite songs.The song has such a beautiful background music.The first time I heard it,it reminded me of my brother and how I felt about him.Here are the lyrics

“Sorry you missed me
I’ll get back with you as soon as I can
Thank you and god bless”

Got the news on Friday mornin’
But a tear I couldn’t find
You showed me how I’m supposed to live
And now you showed me how to die
I was lost till Sunday mornin’
I woke up to face my fear
While I’m writing you this goodbye song
I found a tear

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

I got up and dialed your number
And your voice came on the line
That old familiar message
I heard a thousand times it just said
Sorry that I missed you
Leave a message and god bless
I know you think I’m crazy
But I had to hear your voice again

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

So play your upside-down, left handed
Backwards base guitar
And I’ll see you on the other side
Superstar

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

I’m still crying
I’m crying for me
I’m still crying