So I am quitting

It is the first day of no smoking....for the 1,000 time of quitting. I am going to quit but I want one sooooo bad.I can do this I really can.So yes I am out of the closet I have a addiction to cigarettes I hate them but love them all at once.I am going to try to write here so that I can get my feelings out everyday.I hope that I can do this.I have a patch on but I still want one grrrr this is so hard.If I can get through the 1st 2 weeks I am good.