Sad

My brother is gone...yes I know it happened in Oct but today I just miss him.It has been almost a year since I talked to him.I feel like some things between us will never be resolved until I see him again.If he was here I would tell him sorry for not staying in touch and how proud of him I am.He was such a wonderful guy.Like when he took me to my homecoming while I was pregnant.I miss him today and I am not sure why?What is different about today then any other day? Maybe I have just had a harder week and or I am finally realizing he is gone.My family has lost so much.My dad dying when I was 11 my son passing away when I was 21 and my brother when I was 26.I know that Heavenly Father only gives us what we can handle but some days I want to be mad.I hated Fathers Days for so many years till I got married.But this last Fathers Day was really hard.With Greg gone there was nothing fun about the day.I miss my brother everyday and think about him and that I can't wait to see him again.