Crazy boring life

As I think back on my last 26 years I have come to realize I knew he was always there.He knew I would come back to him and he loves me.I know I haven't been a good daughter.I know he loves me and I knowo that I am forgiven.I think as a mother I know understand my love from my Heavenly Father how wonderful is it to know how truly blessed I am to have his love.I use to wondeer how i got so lost...life seemed to come and go and bam I was left behind.Satan he worked hard on me and when I fell I fell hard.I moved at 14 to a new town and I had never nothad a strong church influence in my life.Theone friend I did have that was LDS was by far from perfect.Not to say that it was her fault because it isn't.Satan figured out a way to get me and I guess I just couldn't fight himI had had such a hard time since I was 10.I think there was something I lost when we moved my strength.I love the church and Jesus Christ.I went on in life thinking there was know way I would ever be able to be forgiven,but that is what is so wonderful about Repentance.I felt so lost for so many year.So much has changed in the last year,I was the one in ninety-nine.I moved to Medford and I knew he had found his lost lamb.What a wonderful feeling.I have hadgreat loss in my life and trials.I know alot of people don't go through things I have had to or will still have to go through.I know I have Heavenly father to lean on.I have never felt the Holy Ghost so much since I was 14.It is a beautiful thing to be loved and found.I use to say I don't cry I never was in touch with my emotional side.Ever since I have listened to the Holy ghost I have felt the overwhelming comforting emotions.I have been crying the wonderful and yet sometimes sad tears that I have kept in for far to long.When people say how can Heavenly Father truly know them.I guess I am starting to know and feel how can't he.With faith in Heavenly Father anything is possible.I never thought any of my kids would be baptised and in a few weeks my son whom helped me become a mother is going to be.Baptism is such a awesome thing.How loved are we to be able to receive such a gift.A compass to help guide us how many people walk this earth lost and unhappy.I have been one of those and I can truly say I have been found again and what a beautiful thing it is.I guess not so much found but reminded of how much my Heavenly father loves me.How can you be truly lost when Jesus never leaves you..either you leave him or you never know of his unbinding love.It amazes me everyday that the love he has for us is so overwhelming it is wonderful.I am truly blessed to have the church and Heavenly fathers love for me in my life.