Crazy boring life

I suck at blogging but here is what has been up in the last few months

2012-01-18T14:20:00.000-08:00

It has been so long since I have posted. Life has been a very big trial for my family these last few months. I had a surgery to fix my adhesion problems on 11-11-11. During the surgery they found a hernia the size of a small apple. (I have been in a lot of pain this last year).I spent four days in the hospital. I was happy they found it because it made a lot of people I know eat crow,especially my MIL. Sorry that was mean but she yelled at me at one point saying I went to the dr and ER for nothing. She said it was all in my head.

So two weeks later I got a staph infection (MRSA I have been told by some and others say it was regular) So the staph thing was awful, they had to open me up in the stomach area to release the fluid. They put me in the hospital for 3 days I have been on antibiotics for months, every time I get off the antibiotics I get a bacteria infection. Well these last few weeks I keep getting abscesses so I keep getting cut open to drain it all. This last time they cut in the wound (that was the original wound from the staph) that was almost healed, except it kept draining weird green stuff. In the mist of all this Greg was let go of his job. They gave him a really bad reason for being let go. We think it was because he had to take nights off to keep the kids because we had no one to help us. So we are living off state help and unemployment. We just have to wait for taxes and we will be able to pay our bills.

This trial has had me struggling with my faith. But I know that HF will get our family through this. I wish life could be a little easier for my family, but with Greg being able to go to the temple in early Feb I know Satan is working hard on my family. We will be getting sealed this year(can't believe I would ever get to say this) and I know Satan doesn't want that for my family. I think it will be weird for me to go with someone to the temple. Except for my first time I have always gone by myself. I have very spiritual things happen when I go.

There Beauty all around when theres love at Home.

2011-04-29T15:55:00.000-07:00

First off sorry it has been so long in writing this.

My mother was born April 29th 1959 in Grants Pass Oregon, she was named Lisa Louise White. She was the 5th of 6 children. She has 3 sisters and two brothers. when she was little she blonde with blue eyes. As she grew up she was a very happy child my grandpa worked for a dairy and my grandma was a homemaker but also drove a school bus for a while. When my was 15 her family moved to Brookings Oregon. My mom is very beautiful and was 2nd runner up in the Miss Oregon Pageant. When she was 18 she married my dad in September of 77. My oldest brother was born in 78 then she gave birth to 7 more babies in 79,81,83,87,89,91,94. She was a homemaker before my dad died. She married 4 months after my dad died in 1992. The man she married we will say was interesting the only good thing about that marriage is she my youngest sister. She went on and worked at different places trying to provide for her growing family. She was married and divorced and widowed. She is now married to a very awesome man and they are going on 8 years of marriage. Through the years my mom has always had a strong faith in the Gospel ,she is such a example to me and how I want to live my life. She has gone through a handicap child to a miscarriages and death and life and love and loss. She is the strongest person I know I truly love her with all my heart.

Called to Serve

2011-02-25T22:32:00.000-08:00

My dad was born on May 31st 1956 his given name was William Sheridan Han. He went by Bill or Billy He was so awesome he played football in high school and was an all American football player.He loved all sports if he could play he would. He was a bigger man about 250 ish and 5'6'. He was balding with red brown hair and green eyes. I have his eyes I remember laying on him and looking at his eyes and telling him they were mine eye color. I was a daddy's girl. He could be mean and stern. He was the oldest of 7 kids 2 brothers and 4 sisters. His mom had some drinking problems and was married 3 times. My dad served his mission in Australia a place I have always wanted to visit. He loved being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints. He did a lot of missionary work even after his mission. He had many jobs and we moved a lot as a child.

I remember a regular day on April 16 th 1993. It was a day that I had a day off school. My dad went to work as always. I remember hearing sirens that morning we were camping in our back yard. My mom was gone at a parent teacher conference. All the sudden my cousin Cam and his friend showed up at our house to take us to my Aunt Angies house. As we were driving there I knew something was wrong. I was holding my little brother(he was 18 months at the time) and knowing something was wrong. My siblings and I kept asking questions but no one would Say anything. So finally my mom got there. She brought all of us kids into my aunts room. She had two of my aunts there. They told us that my dad was in a head on collision. At first I just thought he was hurt. But my brother Kimble was sitting next to me starts hitting the bed and saying no not dad not dad. I asked when we could go see him. My mom said we couldn't because he was gone. I was in shock I remember just walking around my aunts house in disbelief.

The next few days were a blur, then came the funeral. There was a viewing and my mom wasn't sure if I should go there and see him. I am so thankful I did because I saw his body and knew he was gone. The funeral was nice and packed. My dad touched a lot of people. People sang songs that I can't remember. I remember walking out for awhile. All the cousins and my siblings sang my dads favorite song called Called to Serve.

We then went to the grave yard and it was so wet and muddy. I just kept thinking it was raining because my dad was weeping in heaven for us. He was a great man and I miss him. I know I will see him again and I am thankful for the sealings.

A star is Born

2011-02-24T22:28:00.000-08:00

So I was born Jan 20th 1983, in Portland Oregon. I was a unexpected pleasant surprise. I was born in a hospital and I was 13 days overdue. My mom cried the day she found out that she was pregnant and not for joy. She had already had 3 kids in three years, you will find out more about that as these post go along. I was born with a birthmark on stomach. My mom knew I was hers although over the years I have wondered because I have green eyes and a head full of hair. I was a average size baby almost 8 pds not sure on the inches.

My name and where it came from

2011-02-24T14:23:00.000-08:00

Well first off my name is Brittany Sarah Han ( Han like plan not hawn ) Campbell.
So my mother told me that when she was pregnant with me she heard a little green eyed red head girl named Brittany. She loved the name and that is where my parents got the name Brittany. Sarah is from my maternal and paternal great grandmas. So on my moms side her moms moms name was Sarah and my dads moms moms names was Sarah. I guess they wanted to keep the name in the family. My maiden name was at one point spelled with 2 n but my grandpa I guess had a problem with someone else having the same name so he took one of the N off. Growing up I always had people call me by Hawn and it was annoying to a point I think the most annoying thing about it was that even after we would tell people the right way they would get it wrong. Lets my last name is my married name of course. Growing up I had a few nicknames my mom called my bitsy baby I guess I was pretty small growing up. I was also called britt spit and britt brat wait I am still called Britt bratt.

My personal history

2011-02-24T14:22:00.000-08:00

We had a interesting relief society function last thursday. A wonderful lady came and told us about writing personal history. So I am going to try and post atleast 4 times a week something about me and my history.

Catch up

2010-12-22T13:45:00.000-08:00

Sorry for such a long break but it has been crazy here. Last month I got bronchitis twice and had two rounds of the flu. I am finally better but two of my kids got the flu so it has been crazy. We had a wonderful Halloween. So here is our Halloween pics sorry they are fuzzy I had to use my cell phone. Trent was Iron Man Hunter was Bumble Bee from Transformers Lora was a Oregon ducks cheerleader.

I don't have to any from Nov so here is Dec so cute!

So I am quitting

2010-10-12T10:45:00.000-07:00

It is the first day of no smoking....for the 1,000 time of quitting. I am going to quit but I want one sooooo bad.I can do this I really can.So yes I am out of the closet I have a addiction to cigarettes I hate them but love them all at once.I am going to try to write here so that I can get my feelings out everyday.I hope that I can do this.I have a patch on but I still want one grrrr this is so hard.If I can get through the 1st 2 weeks I am good.

Proud to be a American

2010-09-21T13:25:00.000-07:00

So I am realizing that it is almost a year since Kimble went home to our Heavenly Father. I miss him everyday. I cannot believe that it has been almost a year.I was thinking about 9-11 and how because a few radicals decided to kill american people that it caused my brothers death. It makes me so mad that people in this world can be so awful and kill because they believe americans shouldn't have rights.This is my opinion and I wish we could just have peace and no more soldiers were killed. I love the USA and I am proud to be a american citizen. I am proud of my brother and what he gave up to keep us all safe and all the other men and women who have lost family or friends.

I love this song and this is how I feel today and everyday!

Artist: Lee Greenwood
Song: Proud To Be An American

If tomorrow all the things were gone,
I’d worked for all my life.
And I had to start again,
with just my children and my wife.

I’d thank my lucky stars,
to be livin here today.
‘ Cause the flag still stands for freedom,
and they can’t take that away.

And I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘ Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

From the lakes of Minnesota,
to the hills of Tennessee.
Across the plains of Texas,
From sea to shining sea.

From Detroit down to Houston,
and New York to L.A.
Well there's pride in every American heart,
and its time we stand and say.

That I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘ Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

And I’m proud to be and American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘ Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

I love my brother so much and miss him! Thank you Kimble for giving your life to keep us free!

Stuck Like Glue...my favorite new song

2010-09-04T13:20:00.000-07:00

This song reminds me of my hubby and me.I love it you have to listen to it if you love Country or Sugarland!

Mmm dadoo mmm dadoo mmm dadoo

Absolutely no one who knows me better
No one that can make me feel so good
How did we stay so long together?
Everybody, everybody said we never would
And just when I start to think they're right, the love has died

There you go making my heart beat again heart beat again heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid wont you do it do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in right back in right back in
And I know I'm never letting this go
I'm stuck on you
Whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you and me baby were stuck like glue
Whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you and me baby were stuck like glue

Some days I don't feel like trying
Some days you know I wanna just give up
When it doesn't matter who's right, fight about it all night
Had enough you give me that look
I'm sorry baby let's make up
You do that thing that makes me laugh
And just like that

There you go making my heart beat again heart beat again heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid wont you do it do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in right back in right back in
And I know I'm never letting this go
I'm stuck on you
Whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you and me baby were stuck like glue
Whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you and me baby were stuck like glue

Whoa oh whoa oh

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/stuck-like-glue-lyrics-sugarland.html ]

You almost stay out, too stuck together from the ATL
Whoa oh whoa oh
Feeling kinda sick just a spoon full of sugar make it better real quick
I say Whoa oh whoa oh whatcha gonna do with that
Whoa oh whoa oh
Come on over here with that sugar sticky sweet stuff
Come and give me that stuff, everybody want some
Melodies that get stuck up in your head
Whoa oh whoa oh up in your head
Whoa oh whoa oh up in your head
Whoa oh whoa oh up in your head
Whoa oh whoa oh whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you
You and me together say it's all I wanna do

I said

There you go making my heart beat again heart beat again heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid wont you do it do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in right back in right back in
And I know I'm never letting this go
I'm stuck on you
Whoa oh whoa oh
There you go making my heart beat again heart beat again heart beat again
There you go making me feel like a kid wont you do it do it one time
There you go pulling me right back in right back in right back in
And I know I'm never letting this go
I'm stuck on you
Whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you and me baby were stuck like glue
Whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you and me baby were stuck like glue
Whoa oh whoa oh
Stuck like glue you and me baby were stuck like glue

2010-09-04T13:12:00.000-07:00

So I such a slacker I have officially lost 17 pounds. It has been soooooo hard and I have stumbled a lot but I am doing better. I am sorry I am not a good blogger but I am going to try harder.I have 3 other blogs I am doing.

A moving experience

2010-08-18T23:35:00.000-07:00

So as some may know I lost a baby boy in Dec of 04. It was a very trying experience and I have come to terms with a lot of things involving his death and my healing. I think tonight I finally closed one last door to his passing. I have never been to the NICU even when he was in there.I was to sick to go down and see him before they brought him to me.His passing was a bittersweet moment in my life.I know that he did something so great that he only needed to be here for 12 hrs.I am truly at peace with everything except that I have never been able to go to the place where he lived most of his short life.

My grandmother is in the same hospital that he passed on in.She was sent to the ICU on Monday and has healed quicker then anyone expect her too.I went tonight to tell her to have a safe trip home.

So I had a strong feeling I needed to go to the the NICU.I went to the information desk and asked the lady if she could help me.I told that it has been almost 6 years and that I had yet to see the NICU.She said well I am not sure they will remember you but we can try.The lady was so sweet and nice,she called down there and they said they didn't remember me but I was welcome to come and see it.I walked down there with the wonderful info lady.Once I got there they informed me that one of the nurses that was working tonight was one of the nurses that helped deliver and take care of my sweet baby.They then had me walk in the NICU.As soon as I walked in I felt the spirit so strong in there I stared to cry.They were so kind and showed me where his islet was and where they cared for him.I cried for awhile it was so overwhelming to be there but in a way very peaceful It is hard to explain it.I talked to the nurse who cared for him and she said she helped with the memory box that was made for our family.

This was such a wonderful experience I knew that Bradly was there with me in spirit.I felt so close to him tonight.I really didn't want to leave.As I left I gave the nurse a huge hug and told her thank you for being there for him when I couldn't be.I went away with this feeling that I had finally made the last few steps to closing some open wounds that I thought I had closed.

I know that loosing a child at any age is so difficult.But tonight I feel more at peace with my loss then I have ever have since the day he passed. My life was forever changed when Bradly was sent to our family.Although he was there for such a short time he made me who I am today and for the most part I am truly thankful for the life I have had because of my special angel.

The 4th of July in good old Port Orford

2010-07-11T20:25:00.000-07:00

So for the 4th we went to our old town of Port Orford.We had such a great time.We visited and watched fireworks I love having family vacations.They seem to be so few and far between but when they happen it is great! I also took the kids to the beach(Greg didn't want to go) it was Lora's first time really going and enjoying it(except for when it got windy and threw sand in her face).Here are some pics of us during our time there.Oh and we went to a parade on the 4th and it was really cool especially when there was a car accident(no one was hurt) and they had to re adjust people so they could get the fire truck and ambulance out to where the accident was.Oh we also learned how to play Washoes I say it is a cross breed game of Horse shoes and the game where you throw bean bags into holes.It was actually a very fun game. So here are our pics from the 4th weekend.

Happy Dance!!!!

2010-07-01T15:01:00.000-07:00

I have lost 14 pds !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited and I am going for a Jenny Craig consult tonight.YAAAAAYYYY I hope I can keep this up!

Food

2010-06-29T22:38:00.000-07:00

Well I keep forgetting to post about my weight and health stuff.Overall things are going in a good direction.I am not doing as good as I should but I have cut most junk out.This week has been bad.I have just not been that hungry so I choose the wrong food to it.I wish I could be strong all the time about food.I also think that if I had Aunt Flo that it would be next week because I am craving Chocolate which if you know me you know I am not a huge chocolate fan.I am going to the dr tomorrow and will let you know how it goes till then have a wonderful whatever your doing!

Sad

2010-06-25T20:09:00.000-07:00

My brother is gone...yes I know it happened in Oct but today I just miss him.It has been almost a year since I talked to him.I feel like some things between us will never be resolved until I see him again.If he was here I would tell him sorry for not staying in touch and how proud of him I am.He was such a wonderful guy.Like when he took me to my homecoming while I was pregnant.I miss him today and I am not sure why?What is different about today then any other day? Maybe I have just had a harder week and or I am finally realizing he is gone.My family has lost so much.My dad dying when I was 11 my son passing away when I was 21 and my brother when I was 26.I know that Heavenly Father only gives us what we can handle but some days I want to be mad.I hated Fathers Days for so many years till I got married.But this last Fathers Day was really hard.With Greg gone there was nothing fun about the day.I miss my brother everyday and think about him and that I can't wait to see him again.

Dang Neighbor

2010-06-25T13:21:00.000-07:00

So this morning and guy who I don't know comes to my front door complain about my barking dog.First it isn't my dog barking the most(yes he does bark and I try to keep him from doing it).Second he was so rude to me I was very snarky back to him(yes I know I should have been nice.)Right after her left I brought our dog in.He then calls the police on me and says my neighbors and my dog bark to much.Funny thing my dog was in but the others were barking and making alot of noise.I told the officer I would make sure I would keep my dog quiet.But if the guy wants to press charges it is a 140 fine.Another thing how does he know it is my dog that does all the barking my neighbor has three dogs and there are tons of other dogs barking.How does he know it is my dog? I am just annoyed so I needed to vent about this.I am going to do my best to keep my dog in.I do feel bad for him because he loves being outside.

Good day turned to not so good

2010-05-25T20:32:00.000-07:00

So I am totally excited my best friend just had her fourth baby.It was a long and hard pregnancy for her and she now has a beautiful baby girl.I am jealous she has two boys and two girl.

I have been sick since Saturday and this afternoon I had horrible stomach pains.I went to the dr and she thinks it is a stomach bug.But she took my blood just to be safe so we will know more tomorrow.I then was running late to get Trent to scouts.Normally we have a friend of ours take him but our signals got crossed and he left before I could get him.I then took Trent with my other two to the scout leaders house.So it has been raining all week and they live on a super steep hill and it is all gravel.Just as I get to the top I get stuck.I mean really stuck.So her hubby comes and he gets it more stuck.Long story short it took three guys to get my car out lucky there was no damage to it.

So now my two youngest are in bed I have taken a Vicodin.I am going to curl up on my couch and watch Dear John. Oh yeah I have officially lost 8 POUNDS!!!!

Great News

2010-05-19T13:18:00.000-07:00

I went to my dr today and I have lost 5 pounds so far!!!! I am so excited,proud, happy, probably all those feelings and more.I just need to get to working out and I will be so much better.I hope by this time next year I will have lost alot more!

Food and Gilmore Girls

2010-05-16T15:27:00.000-07:00

Ok so I am so bad at this blogging thing.I am doing very well eating the good things.I still have days when I want to veg and eat bad but they are getting few and far between.

On a other note i finally gave in and started watching my seasons of Gilmore Girls.Now if you know me I have a very special place in my heart for this show.When I was sick in the hospital and recovering this show got me through a very rough patch in my life.When it went off the air I was so sad, I vowed to not watch the show till I could forgive the people who made the show .Well I had a dream about the show(yes I am weird) and I started watching it again.It is like watching a new show all over again.I am so happy I have started watching it again! If you have never watched the show you should try it.The writing is amazing and I love how fast they talk because that is how I talk.Anyways I am done going on and on about the show.

Yesterday was not so good

2010-04-15T21:06:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was not a good eating day.I had to get blood drawn and then I had a dentist appointment.I went over to my friends and had fun hanging out with her.I got home at 2 and realized I had eaten nothing.I kept thinking ok go eat but just kept doing other things.I had a good dinner but by 11 at night I was so hungry I ate a handful of PB M&M's man that made me feel bad so I went and ate some wheat thins and apples.I was still hungry so I ate a bunch more wheat thins.So I need to remember to eat as soon as I can.

So far so good.......

2010-04-13T19:56:00.000-07:00

Well it has been almost a week now and I am surviving.....well almost.I thought it would be harder to give up the food I like.As each day goes by the want is less.I feel that I am not as addicted to bad food as I originally thought.The want to be alive and healthy is raging in my body more then the bad food.I just need to get the exercising bug going and then I will have it all.I always thought that I could whatever I wanted and would have no problems man was I wrong.I will someday admit what my true weight is but I am not ready to come out yet.

Food

2010-04-09T12:10:00.000-07:00

Well yesterday I did pretty good on eating.I need to get more veggies in my diet.The only horrible thing I ate was a chocolate marshmallow egg.This whole new eating is hard especially because I am not always sure what to eat.I am supposed to go see a nutritionist at some point.I sure hope she can give me healthy tips and I can stick with it.

New change in life.

2010-04-08T11:38:00.000-07:00

Well the Dr. took blood test and it turns out I have High Cholesterol....great just what I wanted to hear.I have to completely change my eating habits.That sucks I love bad food.But my life and being here for my hubby and kids is so more important then anything else.I can do this I am already coming off sugar and I am having horrible headaches.I want to be healthy and happy I am tired of pain and not feeling good.I am scare and I know I have to eat good to feel good.It will be a long road but I can do it.I am only 27 and shouldn't have high cholesterol or be pre diabetic.

2010-04-02T13:11:00.001-07:00

Little Lolo has croup so we are stuck at home this weekend.I hope that the boys don't get it.But we are going to be missing out on the fun.Atleast it is General conference and we can just stay home and watch it.I am excited that my two younger sibs are coming to visit me this weekend should be fun to have them and have some help around here.

Lora's newest saying

2010-04-01T14:23:00.000-07:00

So she was sleeping with me lately and she looks over at me and says mommy that's a hoot and laughs.Now if you say it to her she laughs a very fake laugh but it is to cute.

She also tell's me I am a mean mommy.

Also she wants me to kiss her hand and tell her your highness...silly Princess and the Pauper.

Spring break with no dad.....

2010-03-29T19:44:00.001-07:00

Well Greg is gone now for 5 weeks.One down 4 to go I had all the kids home this last week as it was Spring Break.I almost lost it but hung in.My house is a mess and I am tired but thankful Greg has work.I miss him a ton but I can do this.This is just a new and exciting ride right.I meant to post some pics of my kids but haven't found the time.I will get it up soon till then I hope my writing will do.

Nancy Grace

2010-03-29T15:07:00.000-07:00

So as most of you know my brother was killed in Afghan in Oct.I love the show Nancy Grace and she does a little segmant about fallen soldiers.So a month or so ago I wrote them a email and they called me.I was walking in Target and I get a call from a person who works for Nancy Grace.I was so shocked that this was happening.I will let you know when it will happen.I feel this is the best way to keep my brothers memory alive and let people know that he was a person and had a family who loved him very much and misses him.

2010-02-22T21:08:00.000-08:00

I am trying to figure out how I am going to be super mom.I guess knowing Greg is going to be gone for weeks on end is starting to settle in. I am trying to be happy knowing we have a job but there is so much more to it all.I am in charge of everything I am ready for it but then again I am not.I am having other things going on and know it is waying on my mind. LIFE sometimes that word is so much more then just a word.I guess if I wanted to be a single mom I would have signed up that way.I will get through it it will just take time.On a happier note I am finally feeling better.....well sorta not good enough to work out but enough I can fold our mountain of laundry GO me.

Vday dance

2010-02-13T22:25:00.000-08:00

Greg and I went to the Stake dance tonight.It was so fun and we had a wonderful time! The funny thing is that Greg who isn't a member of my church brought up the idea to go...crazy huh.He said he might even go to church with us tomorrow.....heres hoping!

Wahooo

2010-02-06T19:46:00.000-08:00

I worked out 3 times this week.Played volleyball 2 days and then walked.It is a start but hey I am up.I realize I go through seasonal depression it sucks but as soon as Feb comes around I start feeling better.I am happy with most things right now.

Work out

2010-02-02T17:32:00.000-08:00

Well I did it I got up and went for a walk today! Thats all....

Crazy life

2010-02-02T13:18:00.000-08:00

Life has been so crazy I have neglected this blog big time. Greg has been looking so hard for a job and we finally decided to have him go get his Truck driving license.It will be hard to have him gone.The kids are great and doing very well. Me I am working on stuff one of these days I am going to get my big booty in action and loose this weight.I am struggling with this a lot and wish it would just go away.I know how it got here but wish it wasn't there.

Crying for me

2010-02-02T13:13:00.000-08:00

So there is a toby Keith song that is on the radio it is truly one of my favorite songs.The song has such a beautiful background music.The first time I heard it,it reminded me of my brother and how I felt about him.Here are the lyrics

“Sorry you missed me
I’ll get back with you as soon as I can
Thank you and god bless”

Got the news on Friday mornin’
But a tear I couldn’t find
You showed me how I’m supposed to live
And now you showed me how to die
I was lost till Sunday mornin’
I woke up to face my fear
While I’m writing you this goodbye song
I found a tear

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

I got up and dialed your number
And your voice came on the line
That old familiar message
I heard a thousand times it just said
Sorry that I missed you
Leave a message and god bless
I know you think I’m crazy
But I had to hear your voice again

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

So play your upside-down, left handed
Backwards base guitar
And I’ll see you on the other side
Superstar

I’m gonna miss that smile
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wana be
I’m not crying because I feel so sorry for you
I’m crying for me

I’m still crying
I’m crying for me
I’m still crying

2009-11-06T15:24:00.000-08:00

I am not sure what to put I miss my brother.I wonder why him and what was the reason? Really it sucks I wish I had a better relationship with.He is what America is all about Home of the Brave...and he truly was

My Brother

2009-10-24T16:42:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I found out my brother Kimble passed away.I already miss him.I am in shock that he is gone.I am mad at the situation my family is in.He died fighting to keep our country safe he and another brave soildier lost his life.I love him forever.

RASCAL FLATTS

2009-10-19T19:04:00.000-07:00

So my mother in law offered to pay for us to go with her and her boyfriend to go see Rascal Flatts.My hubby's awesome aunt and soon to be uncle will watch the kids....the only downfall we leave the morning of the 30th which means the boys miss Halloween at school.....does that make me a bad mom? But even after all of that I still get to see my FAVORITE GROUP EVER!!!!!!!

2009-10-18T17:12:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel left out for whatever reason...........Maybe I annoy certain people or maybe I just forget to be invited who knows...but sometimes I feel left out.

Autumn 2009

2009-10-16T19:48:00.000-07:00

We did the pumpkin patch thing and I got some great pictures.So I am going to use them as my kids pics which I never go and pay to get.I guess this is photography on a budget....but I think they are pretty good wish I had a better camera.Anyways here are the newest pics and as you can see all is well in the family.I am babysitting and Greg has a job which he hates so life is good!

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Day

2009-10-15T10:56:00.000-07:00

It is nice to know that somewhere some recognized the need for this.I am truly thankful for he people that went ahead of me in my loss and made my experience a little easier.My grandma had a loss and she never even knew what the baby was.So to all who have or will ever have this horrible loss I think of you today.

I Belong to the Church........

2009-09-03T23:25:00.000-07:00

Of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints...I know who I am I know Gods plan I follow him in faith.I believe in the Savior Jesus Christ I honor his name.I do what is right I follow his light his truth I will proclaim.........................
So I have never actually said I am LDS on my blog but I am and PROUD of it.I know that the LDS church is true with my whole heart.I struggled for many years wondering if it was.I can say without a shadow of a doubt that Joseph Smith is a true prophet of God and that he was sent to earth to restore the gospel and on Earth.I feel so blessed to be able to express my love of my church everyday.For a very long time I felt so lost and when I went back to church I figured out the missing piece was Heavenly Father and his love in my life.Things aren't always easy but by putting my faith in the Lord I have been blessed ten million times over.

I am thankful that I am able to have the blessings of seeing my family grow and learn every week.Whether you believe my church is right or wrong you have to admit we are very for our families....and I am so grateful for my kids and hubby.

My husband isn't a member of my church in fact he never even goes with me.I am ok with that he is happy living his life that way.I hope that by my example he will find his way to what he feels is true.Whether that is mu church or something different.I know I am blessed with so much I see it everyday especially with my health and the bills that in cure from them.I love Heavenly Father and feel his love for me and that is enough for me.

Moms

2009-09-03T23:15:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful for my mom.She is such a survivor...have a severe handicapped child and being widowed with 7 kids,going through a couple of abusive relationships.She is such a awesome example of what a mom should be.I wish she knew what a great example of a women and mother she is to me.I finally figured out who I want to be like when I grow up..my mom It is sad a amazing how different moms can be.

My mom I love her!

I used to wonder why Greg didn't get along with his mom.I always thought that he over exaggerated how his mom was.She always seemed so nice and friendly...till we moved by her.I have come to realize that Greg was completely right about her.She is very hypocritical and thinks that rules just don't apply to her.Her sister is a HUGE druggie and low class...I realize my mother in law is like that just with money.Cheating on all your 3 husbands and lying and living a not so secret life(Greg called that she was cheating a month ago).I feel so sad for her she has made her life a mess and only she can blame herself.She needs alot of help and who knows if she will ever get it.I will pray for her and hope that she finds the real inner peace she needs.I will still be a support in her life but wont believe a word she says anymore..I have lost all respect for her and I hope that someday she can gain that back.I feel so bad for Greg what a example of a mother.No wonder he has trust issues.If I had only know that when we were first married. He remembers when his mom would go drop him off at his dads work so she could go screw other men.It is so sad that he has to remember this about his mom.I could go on and on about her drug use and so on and so forth but I wont.It just makes me sad to see her ruin her life once again.

I hope every mom out there knows that what you do whether you know it or that you do leave a impression whether good or bad.I think that sometimes we forget as moms that we do have precious little gifts from Heavenly father to raise.

Living Dead in Dallas

2009-09-02T21:28:00.000-07:00

So I read the second book in the series and I have to say I am enjoying the series as each book goes on.In this book we find out a little more about the vamps and how they can be.We also learn more about how society looks at the vamps.It reminds me a lot of how "normal" people can be so prejudice against people who aren't "normal".I really enjoyed the second book.The only down part was there is a Vamp that is a molester and serial killer and a almost rape scene.So if you have a hard time reading anything with sexual content DO NOT READ THESE BOOKS!!!! I overall like the series so far and would recommend them to people with my warning.I still love Sookie and think she is a awesome character.

Bradly my full story.....if you havent read it yet.

2009-08-31T21:43:00.000-07:00

Bradly Michael Campbell
I found out I was pregnant with our third child on July 25th 2004.The reason I remember was because my family was having a huge family reunion. I was on my way out of town with my boys, Trentyn who was 3 and Hunter who was just barely 1, and Greg my husband. I was so excited I had to call my mom and she was excited too.

As the weeks rolled on, everything was going well. I felt fine besides normal everyday pregnancy woes. I went in to my first doctor appointment and found out I wasn't 10 weeks along like I thought, but only 6 weeks. Looking back I am happy I got a month back. By 16 weeks I found out we were having our third boy and we decided his name would be Bradly Michael (Michael is after Greg's dad).

Right after I had Hunter I found out I had gallstones, and I began having issues again. By 19 weeks I was really having a hard time, so I went into my OB and he said that I could have my gallbladder removed. I hesitated to do it because I was worried something bad might happen, but I went ahead and had the surgery. The surgeon said all was well and as a 21 year old I believed him. I had no reason not to. I was supposed to feel better after a week, but instead I went downhill. The surgeon told me I was fine, that it was probably gas. Bradly seemed to be doing fine. I felt him kicking more and more. I just got sicker but I never thought it was that bad. I was so sick that I couldn't even sleep in my own bed because I hurt so badly. I finally had my OB appointment on December 5th. My OB walked in and saw how yellow I was and ordered lab work immediately. Turns out my surgeon had nicked my common bile duct. I had bile everywhere in my body besides where Bradly was. By Friday I was sent to Medford (3 hours from my home). My mom flew in from Utah to be with me. When she saw me, I was so bloated she said I looked like I was 9 months pregnant.

I was admitted to the hospital. The doctors were worried about the baby. I was too. The first day we were there my mom walked into my room and all of the sudden she saw my stomach move from a huge kick. That is one of my favorite memories of Bradly because to me it meant he was fine. The gastroenterologist did a procedure and fixed the hole. I also had to have 8 liters of bile removed from my body. My mom went home after several days since we thought I was getting better and would be able to leave on Tuesday the 14th or Wednesday the 15th. Well that didn't happen. I didn't get home until January 15th.

The night I had Bradly was a normal day from what I can remember. I was sleeping off and on and Greg was with me (he had been laid off from his job a few months earlier). All of the sudden I heard this popping sound like a water balloon. It was so loud that it woke Greg up. I figured that it was my catheter that had somehow popped out. I called the nurse, who came in to look and told me that I was in labor and that my water had broken. From then on it was a whirlwind.

I wasn't in the maternity ward so they had to call a code blue and 20 minutes later at 12:58 a.m. on December 15, 2004, Bradly was born. He weighed 1 pound 9 ounces and was 13 1/2 inches long, born at 24 ½ weeks gestation. He was born alive and I thought he looked just like my oldest son. I vividly remember looking at Greg and knowing that this wasn't good. It happened so fast that Greg was across the room. He couldn't even comfort me. I told him to go with Bradly and I would be fine.

The night went by and I have no memory of it. I am not sure if it was shock or grief, but I just can't remember details. Greg called his mom and stepdad, and they came right over. My mother in law stayed with me and Greg's stepdad went with him. Sometime during the night I was told that Bradly's lungs were so underdeveloped that the tubes in his lungs came out and they almost lost him, but they were able to save him so that I could see him.

The next morning the doctors who were taking care of Bradly came in and gave us the worst news a parent ever has to hear. They said that because my water broke so early, Bradly ended up getting my infection, which in turn gave him a brain bleed. They said even if he made it he would be severely handicapped and would probably only live until he was 2 or 3. Also he was only holding his oxygen saturations at 75% and he was already trying to go. I knew in my heart what we had to do I couldn't prolong his life knowing he was in pain and would probably die anyway.

They moved us down to a room near the NICU and they brought him to me at 1:00pm.They asked if we wanted to have him on the tubes or without. We said without. They brought him in and he was so small and bruised (although I didn't see it) and his eyes were still fused shut. Not being able to see his eyes was so hard. I did pretty good holding him until they said I should put him on my bare chest. I did that and I lost it completely. I just couldn't believe this was happening to me. My boys never saw Bradly because they were with family hours away from us. I held Bradly as he took his last breaths. He passed at 1:32 p.m. I was so sad, but in my heart I knew he was safe and not in any pain anymore. Greg's mom and two aunts were in the room with us. I asked Greg if he wanted to hold Bradly after he passed. Greg said no at first but then after his mom held Bradly, he took him too. I have a vivid memory of this and I know if Greg hadn't held him he would have regretted it. We spent a little more time with him. His color was getting bad. I held him one more time and gave him so many kisses. My biggest fear was that he wouldn't know me. The nurses took him back to the NICU and did a cast of his hand and foot. I keep those in my window to remind me of him.

He was buried on December 31st. The funeral home waited to bury him hoping I would be able to go. Greg's dad and uncle arranged the whole thing. I am thankful for his dad taking over because I know Greg and I couldn't have done it. I missed his burial by a week. I am still sad to this day I wasn't there.

I ended up having to have major surgery on December 24th. They had to clean the rest of my body out. In all I had 22 pounds of bile in my body and a broken heart. After a long road to recovery, I was blessed to know that I was lucky enough to have a special little person in my life for 12 and half hours. We just added to our family in September 2007, a little girl named Lora. I know that I will see Bradly again and I know he watches out for his family. Without my loss I wouldn't be the person I am today.

Dead until Dark

2009-08-31T11:41:00.000-07:00

I finished the book yesterday all 292 pages so here is my review:

So the book is ok, at the beginning it was very slow. I honestly enjoyed the book once it got going (more as it hit the middle of the book).The story is pretty easy to follow except when it skips ahead before I was ready for it.Sometimes she sorta hinted at stuff but then kinda leaving you with a "wait what just happened".The whole Vampire thing is a little boring to me I like Sookie the best, she is a character I can relate to.I also want her to end up with Sam..although I am sure that isn't who she is going to be with. The only thing I really have a issue with is the Vamps can only come out at night. The fact that they sleep in the ground bugs me.I like that they are mainstream and known about though...that makes it more interesting.I would rather they be like another Vamp book and be able to be out all the time and never have to sleep.Anyways you should read it at least to see what the hype is about and let me know what you think.

Sookie Stackhouse Books

2009-08-29T19:30:00.000-07:00

So I'm curious about the whole show True Blood.So I am going to read the books...after each book I am going to give a over view of what I think...stay tuned

Sounds like Life to me

2009-08-28T21:26:00.000-07:00

So I was doing so well...I had a bunch of energy back and was busy with my crazy life.Then last Sunday hits and I am feeling sick again.I went to the ER on Tuesday after two days of hell to find out that they want to keep the stinkin stent in for another 3 weeks.The bonus is I am loosing weight so fast because I can barely eat! I am down 10 pounds,So instead of complaining I am going to post a picture of my beautiful kids.

Getting prepared

2009-08-20T14:25:00.000-07:00

So after a lot of thinking and praying I want to go to the temple.It is time to start getting prepared for me to go.Yes Greg is ok with it I have talked to him and although he doesnt completly understand he said he was fine with it. I am ready to get prepared to go.....I am just excited to be worthy to go to the temple!

Kids say the darndest things!

2009-08-19T23:37:00.000-07:00

So today I walked past the boys room and saw Hunter playing with his little pee pee.I told him not to play with it because heavenly father doesn't like it.I then go out to Greg and ask him what to say to him.He says tell him it will fall off if he plays with it.So I go back in his room and tell him that.He looks at me for a few and then says mom did you play with your pee pee when you were little and is that why yours feel off? I laughed so hard and told him no.He says the funniest things to me...love him so much

New blog background

2009-08-19T20:21:00.001-07:00

Decided it was time for a update on my blog what do you think? I love it.....

I am truly humbled

2009-08-17T10:56:00.000-07:00

After I wrote my last post I found a interesting blog.The blog is about a lady who was in a plane crash and now is living her life with severe burns.As I read the blog I thought to myself wow things could be worse and how would I deal with it.I am now a little more humble and thankful to my Heavenly Father for the things I do have.If I have to have more medical bills I will just have to deal with it because when it comes right down to it I would rather spend everyday with my family then never again. My life experiences are only what I can handle and I know I can handle each and everything life is thrown at me with love patience and a desire to not dwell on things I can't change.Plus the loving guide of my Heavenly Father I will be ok. I am so thankful for my little family.I am truly blessed to have my beautiful little girl who probably wasn't medically supposed to be here but Heavenly Father knew better and blessed my body to be healthy enough to have her.I am truly blessed and need to remember that everyday.

I HATE DOCOTORS!!!!!!!!

2009-08-17T10:11:00.000-07:00

I HATE Dr.s especially Dr Larson whom practise in Coos Bay OR.He has made my life hell for far to long.I am tired of being sick because he screwed up.I feel helpless because I feel like I have no way to get him to realize what he did to me. To make matters worse I owe at least 21,000 dollars in medical bills which of course I cannot pay due to the fact that I don't work and probably cant work for awhile.I am dealing with all this crap of Dr's and my hubby is barely making enough for us to get by.I cant get insured for any of this because oh yeah stupid pre existing condition. I also have to get a tooth pulled and that is going to cost me money I really don't have(yes the tooth thing is my fault.) GRRRRR can life be any worse on the money front????

Summer 2009 pics(yes sorry it has taken me so long)

2009-08-15T20:45:00.000-07:00

Summer has been so much fun snd yet crazy and hard. The summer began and with Greg making the decsion to not go to Texas any more.Life has been a struggle trying to find a job and living.We have been going and going to parks and swimming having my little sister visit, hanging t with friends. Then in August I had a little minor stint(no pun intended) where I had to be hospitalized for 3 days to have a stint put in my common bile duct.(whole backstory on Angelbabies website) Anyways I had to be there and we have no insurance so needless to say we are broke and now in a huge amount of debt but atleast I am alive and not in there for a month.I am recovering very well.The boys start school soon Trent 3rd Hunter 1st(cant believe it) Lora turns two next month and I keep windering how they grow so fast(slow down) So that is a update of my summer and here are a ton of pics form the summer.Oh and I chopped 8-9 inches off my hair.

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Suck at blogging

2009-07-29T21:50:00.000-07:00

Ok swo beat me if you must...I know I am so bad about updating this silly thing...not much to tell still no job.The kids are all getting super big and I have no time to blog....just to busy.When I get full internet(someday) I will blog all the time till then this is what ya gonna get.

Goodnew but a vent first

2009-05-22T15:38:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to let everyone know we are here for another year YAY. I knew we were supposed to be here a little longer but wasn't sure if HF felt that way.Anyways we got our answer.Greg was having a very hard time deciding if he wanted to ever go back to TX.His step dad is a very shady person he is being sued as we speak owing the employment agency he went through money,plus when Greg was there he heard from a reliable source that he thinks Greg should get a girlfriend and leave me :o.Are you kidding me how dare you say that to anyone.So that was a huge thing that made Greg mad.Plus his mom has been making horrible and very rude comments to me and I refuse to talk to her any more.at least till she gets it through her thick skull it is a very rude thing.She made one comment about the new phone I got she said why do you need such a nice phone your just a SAHM :oReally my phone was 30 bucks back off.I am done with her and her annoying personality.I need people in my life to lift me up not down.Oh and she said I was texting the whole time I was at her house...really I wasn't if that was true then Lo would never have gotten into the pool with me watching her making sure she didn't fall out of her toy.I am sorry if your freaking backyard isn't 1 year old proof so I have to stay in the house and be bored.But it is ok for her DD to text all day long whatever.
Anyways he called unemployment and found out he can get back on unemployment on the 1 condition he doesn't go back to TX. Plus the amount he is getting is just enough to pay our Rent for next month.Plus we applied for Food stamps and will be getting those as well.I know it will all work out with prayer and going to church.It will be tight but we will manage an DI get Greg home where he belongs

Men

2009-05-14T16:18:00.000-07:00

Why are men so annoying? Greg goes to work for 2 weeks I am home by myself doing everything.He gets home and says he is off.WHEN DO I GET MY OFF.....ok yeah annoyed.So I am going out tonight and leaving him with the kids and himself.

FINALLY!!!

2009-05-13T14:15:00.000-07:00

Finally got the internet after almost a year of not having it and having to use other people's it is nice to sit in my house and be able to look up things when I want.

Trent's Baptism.

2009-04-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

So Trent was Baptised on Saturday.My little brother Logan did the baptism it was wonderful.Greg even cam so that was nice.It was a very spiritual experience.I wish everyone could have come but we had a nice turnout and that meant alot to Trent.Here are a few pics.

A day in Jacksonville

2009-04-19T21:17:00.000-07:00

We went to Jacksonville with my brothers and sister in law.It was so much fun I have never been it was alot of fun so here are the pics.

2009-04-15T07:40:00.000-07:00

Just some pics of the kids because I found my camera and realized I hadn't used it since christmas...sad I know.So the other pics are Trent with his instrument for Cubscouts.....there are Hot tamales in it yummy needless to say.I have to say my kids are pretty darn cute.

EASTER PICS

2009-04-15T07:32:00.000-07:00

Easter pics I had to take them on my phone so they aren't the best. But they are pretty dang cute if you ask me.Besides the one that Hunter is mad in but hey we can't win them all.

Past friends

2009-04-07T13:40:00.001-07:00

People come in our lives sometimes just for a few moments but do they really know the impact they have on a person? I always wonder if I have touched someone and that they wonder what happened to me for instance I have a few different people I think about.
I had a friend whom I was very close to.I will call her Stacy,I loved her as much as a friend could.We both lost a baby,both our third boy and only about 18 months apart from each other.I would like to think I helped her at some point in her loss.I know I did at some point help her.Sometimes the ugly jealous bug comes rearing its head.I had been trying to get pregnant for over a year and she had just lost her baby about 6 weeks prior.She told me she was pregnant i was so mad because she was drinking and not doing anything right.(yes I know humility isn't always my strong point.)Plus on a side note my true BFF( I will call her Polly) had told me the night before that she was pregnant unexpectedly.(with her I was able to explain that I was jealous).So anyways back to the other friend Stacy.I tried to be a good friend but after the whole Jealous thing we lost touch.She went through alot with her next pregnant.(I did end up getting pregnant 6 months later...with my beautiful daughter).I know that some of the reason we lost touch was because I had hurt feelings.But I now know she started doing drugs again.After moving to Medford I cut her out of my life.I still wonder about her and her 3 boys.I hope the best for her and I know at the time when I was friends with her was what we both needed.I think I needed her and her loss more then she needed me.I went through her loss like it was my own.I never really dealt with my son's death.I was so excited to have a friend who was going to have a baby.I loved that baby like a family member.I remember after Stacy baby died I called my mom and just cried,it helped me remember alot that I forgot and made me deal with what I never had.
I have had other friends who I knew and loved or just a random person.Like the friend that I had in 2nd grade I loved her and she was a good childhood friend I wonder what happened to her.When I was 7 I had my tonsils out there was a girl at the hospital who's sister was there having something done.She was sweet and nice to,it made the surgery very easy.I also remember all the nurses and Dr.s who saved my life.I found out one of my Surgeons (who was awesome) was a a member of the same church I went to.I always felt close to him.
OK so I am not sure if this is a weird post but I was just thinking about this and how people come and go and who knows maybe we touched them someway.

Lo fell down and broke her crown

2009-04-06T13:44:00.000-07:00

Lo fell off the second from the last step and this is what happened.She hit the cement hard poor baby.This is only about the third time any of my kids at this age have hurt themselves this bad.She is ok I promise.

2009-04-05T17:23:00.000-07:00

As I think back on my last 26 years I have come to realize I knew he was always there.He knew I would come back to him and he loves me.I know I haven't been a good daughter.I know he loves me and I knowo that I am forgiven.I think as a mother I know understand my love from my Heavenly Father how wonderful is it to know how truly blessed I am to have his love.I use to wondeer how i got so lost...life seemed to come and go and bam I was left behind.Satan he worked hard on me and when I fell I fell hard.I moved at 14 to a new town and I had never nothad a strong church influence in my life.Theone friend I did have that was LDS was by far from perfect.Not to say that it was her fault because it isn't.Satan figured out a way to get me and I guess I just couldn't fight himI had had such a hard time since I was 10.I think there was something I lost when we moved my strength.I love the church and Jesus Christ.I went on in life thinking there was know way I would ever be able to be forgiven,but that is what is so wonderful about Repentance.I felt so lost for so many year.So much has changed in the last year,I was the one in ninety-nine.I moved to Medford and I knew he had found his lost lamb.What a wonderful feeling.I have hadgreat loss in my life and trials.I know alot of people don't go through things I have had to or will still have to go through.I know I have Heavenly father to lean on.I have never felt the Holy Ghost so much since I was 14.It is a beautiful thing to be loved and found.I use to say I don't cry I never was in touch with my emotional side.Ever since I have listened to the Holy ghost I have felt the overwhelming comforting emotions.I have been crying the wonderful and yet sometimes sad tears that I have kept in for far to long.When people say how can Heavenly Father truly know them.I guess I am starting to know and feel how can't he.With faith in Heavenly Father anything is possible.I never thought any of my kids would be baptised and in a few weeks my son whom helped me become a mother is going to be.Baptism is such a awesome thing.How loved are we to be able to receive such a gift.A compass to help guide us how many people walk this earth lost and unhappy.I have been one of those and I can truly say I have been found again and what a beautiful thing it is.I guess not so much found but reminded of how much my Heavenly father loves me.How can you be truly lost when Jesus never leaves you..either you leave him or you never know of his unbinding love.It amazes me everyday that the love he has for us is so overwhelming it is wonderful.I am truly blessed to have the church and Heavenly fathers love for me in my life.

2009-03-31T07:29:00.000-07:00

I am alive life has been very hectic.Greg is back working in Texas he has been gone since the 18th of March an dont be back till April 10th.I hate having him gone this long.We have been sick and we are getting better but springbreak sucked.Anyways quick update.

A few new pics

2009-03-01T20:25:00.000-08:00

A few pics I took of the kids Very cute

Kids say and do the funniest things.

2009-03-01T17:53:00.000-08:00

So as most of you know Trent is getting ready to get baptised.I asked him when he wanted to get it done.He says July I asked him why he says it is a nice month.I laughed so hard because he was so serious about it.

At church the primary president came up to me.She says they were asking the kids what they liked about their dads and mom's.Hunter says I don't know my dad is mean...I guess the whole primary(adults) laughed.He said he likes that I give him TV dinners.

Lora is very funny and she will say no way and go away to me.I have a hard time telling her no.Her new thing is saying pretty and she touches her hair.She is learning and growing everyday.She is very smart it is almost annoying sometimes

Greg is going back to work

2009-03-01T17:33:00.000-08:00

Greg is leaving for his job tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He is going back to Texas so we will have money to pay our bills and not have to use our savings.I am really excited for him and so I don't go insane having him home with me.I really love him but he is driving me insane being home.

Thanks to all who kept us in your prayers. Please keep us in your prayers till we know what is going on for sure.I mean in the next few months.

Update

2009-02-22T18:44:00.001-08:00

Nothing new on the job front.Things have changed and I have no clue what is going on.

Life is busy and having Greg home for 3 weeks straight is driving me INSANE!!!!! I love my two callings I schedule the missonaries and I am the book club leader.

Trent is going to be 8 in a few weeks....wow how did that happen? How is it that I have a almost 8 year old.He said he wants to be baptised in Jluy I asked him why he said because it is nice.

Hunter still has a new girlfriend every week.He loves church and sings the songs from Primary and loves it.

Lora is well Lora she is a character but she is full of life,constantly going.I am counting down the weeks till nursery....3 weeks...YAY

Yeah work...

2009-02-03T18:27:00.000-08:00

So we still have work ,Greg will be going back to Texas next wednesday.I am so happy we have work and that we wont have to worry about money.I feel so blessed to be able for my husband to have a job! it has been a blessing in disguise it made Greg grateful for whatever job he can have.It looks like we will be ok after all thanks for all the prayers.

Unemployment

2009-01-30T22:24:00.000-08:00

Looks like the unemployment has hit our family.Please keep us in your prayers as we struggle ti find work.I am worried but we are getting our taxws back soon so we can atleast live off that for a few months,Greg was told yesterday that today was his last paycheck...yeah I am not very happy with this since i know how much his family makes and we are getting laid off when they could cut back.I guess we can't change people i wish I could.

2009-01-26T07:28:00.000-08:00

Here is my update LIFE IS CRAZY...still trying to be single mom kinda. I miss Greg when he gone.I am worried about his job but there isn't anything I can do but pray and wait.I will update when I have some more to say.

My birthday dinner

2009-01-17T20:22:00.001-08:00

Since my Birthday is on Tuesday and Greg is going to be gone.He leaves for Texas again on Monday.Anyways we went to Outback Steakhouse.I had a Coco-Berry drink(non-alcoholic) it was so yummy.Greg had steak and some breaded mushrooms.I had Babyback Ribs.It was nice to not have any kids and just enjoy my dinner without mom,mom..mommy.I am kinda sad since Greg will be gone for my birthday so this makes up for it.

Visiting Port Orford

2009-01-14T17:02:00.001-08:00

WE are visiting here and I am truly thankful to be where we are.Medford has so much to offer our family and I love having church there.THis town is kinda a sad little town and very depressing.We are here this week because I had to get a root canal on Tuesday which was no fun.But I am good now we will be goin g home on Friday and I will happy to be going home.It is fun to visit but I am happy to not live here

2009-01-05T21:03:00.000-08:00

I talked to my bishop this Sunday and it made me feel so much better.I have realized that I have come so much farther then when I first moved here.I am very much content with my life and the direction it is going.We talked about eternal progression and I realized how wonderful it is to know I will grow and learn

Our great family christmas

2008-12-25T20:26:00.000-08:00

This is our Christmas at home and at my mother in Laws house.I got a new coat it was great and we had so much fun.We even sang happy bday to Christ.Good food and family it was so fun.

The beautiful Snow

2008-12-19T18:59:00.000-08:00

This is what we woke up to on Monday it was so beautiful but it melted away.We got about 3 inches,this is not my house but it is really pretty.The kids loved it to bad they were on a 2 hr delay so they only got a hour or so to play.

Look what Lora found.

2008-12-19T18:54:00.000-08:00

So I was at my friends Amanda and she found this...yup a gingerbread house and man did she love it.She would look at it smile and laugh then eat.

New Hair

2008-12-18T07:26:00.000-08:00

My new hair I like it alot.The boys wanted to take a picture with me so I let them.I think they turned out nice.Although I did take them in my car

I miss Greg

2008-12-16T13:52:00.000-08:00

I took a nap and had a bunch of different dreams about Greg.I must really miss him.Every dream seemed so real it was so sad I would wake up and realize he wasn't there.I miss him so much and I still have 6 days before he gets home.I love him so much and I really truly miss him alot.

Happy Birthday Bradly

2008-12-14T16:33:00.000-08:00

I am writing this today because I am not sure I will have access tomorrow.It will Bradly's 4th bday tomorrow.It is crazy for me to think that I would have had a four year old.As the years go by it seems like it is so much easier to live and be happy. This is Greg and I first year apart on his birthday.I have been so blessed to have him in my life for the short 12 hrs.Someday I will have him forever in my family.his birthday is not a sad day for me it is a day of remembrance to celebrate his life.I am not sure what we will do tomorrow since we used to go to a lights display and have dinner.I think the kids and I will go out and look at lights and I will make a special dinner.So just remember for me to say happy birthday to him. If you would like to read Bradly and my story i have a link called Angel Babies and you can read it.

My morning to the Airport or not.

2008-12-12T13:38:00.000-08:00

So my day started off so crazy.I took Greg to the airport thinking he would be delayed but nothing to bad.Well not my luck.I get a call at 10 from him.He said come get me I was like ok so I get Lora up from her nap.Just as I get her in the car Greg calls back never mind I am going to Texas.So I was like ok when is the plane leave? He says 12:50 I say do you want me to come get you?He says nah I am fine.So 10 mins later he calls come get me I need to get some money from my mom.I was like ok are you serious.So we go have lunch I drop him off at 11:30 he calls me as I am leaving the airport to tell me his flight was delayed again because the stupid fog.So I go get him again.We stay home till 1:15 and I drop him off he is now on the plane but will be staying in Las Vegas tonight because he missed his connecting flight.But he got off and he gets to stay at the Hardrock Hotel tonight which he will love since he has never done anything like this.So now it is 1:45 and I am tired and still have to go get the boys.I hope my day gets a little better.

Santa is a scary guy

2008-12-11T07:30:00.000-08:00

Here are our Santa pics.Lora wasn't having any of it,oh well.They are cute though.

Christmas Shopping is done!!!!

2008-12-09T13:28:00.000-08:00

So I did my Christmas shopping and I'm done!!!! I had to buy for us and from Greg's grandparents.So I got some killer deals.It is tight this year so Greg and I probably wont be getting anything but that is ok.I don't need anything and neither does Greg

I got Trent:
Battleship,Candy land,Three shirts and pair of pants,A Nerf basketball hoop,a cash register,Bakugan cards PJ, and a church outfit which is super cute.They are getting part of that stuff from Grandma

Hunter: Memory,Connect four,Chutes and Ladders,three shirts.pants,Bakugan cards,A tool box of art stuff,church outfit It think that is it.

Lora: Two babies, a Barbie ,a Graco baby baby stuff ,a outfit,PJ(I got for free) they are super cute.

So I spent about 150-175 and I am done I think I did pretty good.The PJ I got for the boys were 3.25 at Target and their shirts were all under 5 bucks.I didn't spend over $15 for the boys.Lora's Graco baby kit was 25 but that is a good deal.Santa still needs to do stockings but that should be easy.I am not sure if anyone cares about what they are getting but I wanted to write it out because then I know the kids are going to get some nice stuff .Plus I am done so that is nice.

Me and my best friend

2008-12-03T17:34:00.000-08:00

So I was looking at my pictures I was sent over the years and I found this picture of me and my best friend.We must have been in 10th grade.So I thought I would post it for fun.

New Family pics

2008-11-28T20:00:00.000-08:00

Just a few new pictures of the family.What a cute looking family if I do say so.

What I am thankful for

2008-11-25T10:48:00.000-08:00

I saw this on a friends blog and thought I would take a page in her book.She is writing her 100 things she is thankful for.Not sure I can 100 but I can do a few so I will do it till Thanksgiving.

1.I am thankful for my hubby.He is so sweet and tries his hardest to be a wonderful hubby.He is generous and willing to do anything for anyone.He is my best friend.

2.I am thanful for Trentyn my 1st son.He is a light for me from the very beginning.He was the person who helped me see who I could be the mom I wanted to be.He is bright and kind he is the best big brother.

3.I am thankful for Hunter my second he has always loved me even when I couldn't take the best care of him.He is the sweetest loving little boy.He makes me laugh all the time even when he drives me insane.

4.I am thankful for my angel baby Bradly.Although I only had a short time with him he made me realize the mom I needed to be.He has brought me more joy then I ever thought I could have.

5.I am thankful for my baby girl Lora.She is such a wonderfully challenging little girl.I waited so long for her and to have her I feel like the luckiest mom in the world.She is the most beautiful little girl and I thank Heavenly father everyday for her.

6.I am thankful for my brothers and sisters.I have 3 brothers and 5 sisters.They each bring out different sides of me.I am truly thankful for growing up in a big family.I have always been very thankful for them.I may not always say it but I love them so much and wished I lived closer.

7.I am thankful for my mom.She is the strongest women I know.She has been through so much and she has come out of it all a wonderful person.She is the best mom and dad a girl could ever have.

8.I am thankful that I have a wonderful ward.That I am a memeber of the Latterday Saints.I have grown in the last few months because having the church in mhy life.The love and understanding I get from my ward is awesome.I is a always very accepted about my past there.

9.I am thanful for Heavenly Father with out him I would be nothing.He is a guide I follow in my

life.I try to be a better person because of the love he has for me.

10.I am thankful for my dad athough he was only in my life for 10 years I truly know he loved us all.

11.I am thankful for my inlaws all of them.They have helped in ways they may never know.I think about all they did for two young kids trying to be parents.For them I wouldn't have the life I have now.

12.I am thankful for my best friend she is 3 days older then me.We should have been twins but Heavenly Father knew neither of our moms could have handled both of us.She helps me get through the boring days when I have nothing to do .We can sit on the phone and talk about nothing and we still have fun.

13.I am thankful for sweets,without it life would be kinda boring...I mean bread and water are good.But a good sweet is so much better then just plain old food.

Lora talking

2008-11-21T21:53:00.000-08:00

She is such a character and so funny.

My Twilight experience

2008-11-21T08:52:00.000-08:00

At Red Robin with my friend Michelle.(I only posted cuz Tana made me)

So I went to Twilight last night.It started off meeting some girls and we went to Red Robin.I had a raspberry shake which was good.We walked over to the theatre where we waited in line for 2 hrs.Our line was supposed to go in when the James Bond movie was let out needless to say the stupid staff had no clue what they were doing and let the line that had waited maybe a hour go in before us.I was not very happy but oh well I got a good seat.Besides the stupid staff it was pretty much worth the stupidity.I think they needed to line people up by there time and not just put everyone in.There was two girls in line with us not our friends but they were fun and fed me lol.

As for the movie if I was to rate it out of 5 stars I would give it 3 and half stars.It was good but the camera angles and some of the acting wasn't the best but it was a whole lot of fun.If you like the books it is kinda like any book you love they leave things out and change stuff.It was good as a movie and it did pretty much follow the lines of the story.I hope the next movie is better then this one.Anyways go see it for yourself and you can be the judge of it.

I had a wonderful time with the girls and they were so much fun.Thanks to them for making it entertaining in the long wait! I am tired but it was a wonderul experience and one I wont ever forget!

Photo Tag (thanks Malea)

2008-11-14T16:55:00.000-08:00

I was tagged and this was the picture I found.Lora crying because she the camera.

On your computer open the 5th folder and then the 5th picture and post it! Then tag 5 people

I tag: Amy,Lynette,Tana,Erin and Ash.

TWILIGHT TICKETS!!!!

2008-11-14T16:32:00.000-08:00

Twilight I got tickets for the midnight showing YAYAYAYAYA.I am so excited.I called my little sis to tell her and she was mad at me.I told her she could come with me but she lives in SLC so that wont work.Oh well I get to go!

In my own little corner in my own little world.

2008-11-11T22:09:00.001-08:00

Ok so my place where I found a connection is right in front of my front door.So if you ever come visit me watch out.

So I have a crazy friend who is full of crap and lies to me all the time.She reminds me of Casey Anthony...yeah the baby killer.Anyways she has filled me with a line of bull and I am tired of being used.So if it is you then tell me the truth about the drugs and let me be your friend.Or maybe just cut me loose PLEASE!!!!!

Man I feel like such a downer lately.So having 3 kids and a husband home today was crazy.I like having my own time and do what I want.So no more Veterans day or sick hubby's.I sometimes want to go on strike I mean do the dishes ever stop? Why can't laundry do itself.I need to invent something that will do my laundry.Since I am so totally afraid of our garage since we had a rat problem.Their hole is right next to our washer...hey maybe I can get them to do my laundry like in Cinderella.Ok wishful thinking.I wish I had a maid then she could do everything for me.Greg needs to get a higher paying job lol.Maybe I could have a Super Manny,has anyone see the previews for the new show?I think it just might be my dream come true.I get to boss a guy around and not have to sleep with him.I can just send him home and sleep in my own bed by myself.Ok just kidding gotta love my husband right?

Thoughts of a crazy boring housewife

2008-11-10T23:22:00.001-08:00

Nov. is a hard month for me.It was 4 years ago that I had a surgery that went horrible wrong. Most people that know me know why it is so hard around this time of year..I thought it was getting easier but some days especially today it is a bit harder.I guess I just figured it would be easier for me as time went on. Well time has moved very fast and yet I still feel sadness in Nov. Thanksgiving was a hard time for me 4 years ago.I love the fall and sometimes it makes me sad that I have a not so good memory in my brain.I need to remember what I am thankful for this time of year.Like my kids and husband the life we have as a family

I need to remember that I can do things.I guess as Greg said I just have no faith in myself.I really need to work on the little things in life.For me it seems like two steps forward twenty steps back.I need to find me again and find a few good friends that I can talk to and hang out with.So my new goal is to find me and or find a good friend who wants to be my friend.Well see how that goes.So if anyone wants to be my new best friend sign up.( j/k really I just want a good friend to hang out with).

Oh and I found a spot in my house where I get Internet YAHOOOOOOO.I bet you will never guess where.......I will tell you in another post.

Church and some other ramblings

2008-11-09T19:31:00.000-08:00

So the boys had their Primary Program today.It was so cute and it was the first one my kids were ever in so it was special.I am very happy my kids are learning and growing in my church.Now if I could just get my 1 year old to stay still for 3 hrs. I have been enjoying all the things in my life.I went to a babyshower for a friend and it was so much fun I got to hold babies.I miss that tiny baby stage(ok not really just the idea of a new baby.) I am supposed to be going to see Twilight at 12:02 am at the midnight showing.Yeah I know this is a crazy idea since I wont be home till about 2:30 am and I have to be up getting the kids to school at 6:45 am the next morning but good thing Lora still takes naps. Now I need to just buy the ticket....(ok Greg needs to give me money soon).I tried to get Greg to go to church today but it was a no go.I thought that maybe he would but he decided against it.It would be nice to have him go with me but I know I can't expect him to.Maybe someday.....

Halloween pics and life update.

2008-11-06T19:13:00.000-08:00

Just a few pics from Halloween T was a Firefighter H was a skeleton and L was a poodle.We had a great time and got lost of candy.L costume was only 5 bucks gotta love old navy!!!

I am busy trying to get over being sick but that is ok.My mother law finally got her internet back so I can update a little more often.L is busy walkin g and talking like a cute girl she is.T is doing very good in school and getting so big.He is sweet but gets in trouble for talking in class.Which is so weird because he used to be so shy.H loves Kinder and loves going to school.He has had a new "girlfriend" every week it is so funny.

2008-10-01T18:56:00.001-07:00

I am alive I promise...things have been very crazy.One Greg will going to Texas in a month or so to spend 2 weeks helping put pools in w/his SD.I am trying to come to terms with that.Plus as usual Greg is kinda being a poophead about the internet thing.Still not sure when we will be getting it sooner rather then later.Lora is getting so big and she is such a doll.She is starting to walk she is getting in 2 teeth(FINALLY).She is such a joy in our house besides refusing to say mommy and only saying daddy.She dances to any music and rocks her babies when I sing to her when she is holding them.I am doing good keeping busy with the boys and running them to school and back.I have not missed a week of church since I moved here.Although I have a long ways to go I am truly finding my spirit again.It is hard taking 3 kids by myself but I know I will be truly blessed for atleast going and being a better example to my kids.I love the Lord and thank him everyday for the life he has givien me.As most of you know moving was a huge step for us and even though it is far from easy I am truly happy with my decsion.

No internet

2008-07-03T20:40:00.000-07:00

It is so very frustrating I want to get it but Greg says no way.So I am living without it :( I will update everyone as soon as I get better internet connection.Anyways there is a update!

Here safely!

2008-06-21T21:23:00.000-07:00

The house is so much nicer then the pictures.I am in love with the house!The bedrooms are so nice and big I am so excited.I am sad too and a miss my house right now.It will be fine I guess it is one of those bittersweet things.Anyways we are here safe.It is a 3 bdr 2 brm it is beautiful with a nice big backyard!

MOVING SUCKS!!!!!

2008-06-06T17:30:00.000-07:00

Packing sucks!!!!! I have so much to do and I so don't want to do it.Iam so excited to move but can't someone else pack? We move on the 21st if we get the house otherwise we leave anyways and stay at my MIL house which should be interesting lol.Anyways still packing and taking care of kiddos.

My dads family

2008-06-03T22:21:00.001-07:00

So I was talking to my mom yesterday about my dads family.After my dad died I never really saw or talked to my dads family.I think there is alot to the story but for some reason I just never kept in touch.Well I decided to call my grandpa H I talked to him and my grandma.They are such sweet people and I was very happy I got to talk to them.I sent them a email of pictures of my family.They have never seen my kids.I feel bad for them they never really got a chance to meet us and know us.I wonder how that must be to loose your son and then loose your grand kids too? I hope to stay in contact with them.I found out my grandpa H is pretty sick he has diabetes emphysema and congenital heart failure.I know he never took very good care of himself and it makes me realize I need to take better care of myself.I hope I get to see him someday soon.He only lives about 4hrs from me.I also learned that I have 3 aunts that will live 30 miles from me.Maybe I will try to go see them.My grandpa H talked about my dad and how much he loved to hunt and fish.Which is cool because I really don't know much about my dad.My mom never really says much.I wonder who I am more like my mom or my dad.It is hard to not have a dad around and want to ask him something and not be able to.I know HF does thing for a reason but sometimes I still wish he hadn't.Yes I know it is horrible to think that but I miss my dad after 15 years.I think about how much he would love my kids so much.Maybe that is why I got a hold of my grandparents.I guess I should say that my grandpa H is bio and my grandma is not.My other grandma died a few years ago.So he is my only link to my dad.He told me a story about when my dad went hunting he took his dads gun and had to walk 10 miles back to get his gun.My dad said if did take it back his dad would have shot him.I have never heard this story it was neat and now I have a story to tell my kids so cool.I guess I am rambling but I needed to write this down for my sake.